Empty.

Empty.

Your bed lies empty by the door. I don't have the heart to move it. I try...oh, I try. But if I do, it means you're really gone. You can't be really gone. The silent air suffocates me. Air that once carried the pitter patter of warm puppy paws across the floor boards, the clanging [...]

Date Night

Date Night

As I clean the macaroni and cheese off the floor, my shorts, and my toddler for the 12th time in as many days, all I can think about is a date night. I dream of dressing up in my fanciest outfit, heading to the nicest restaurant in town with no screaming children in tow and [...]

Hug Me, Mommy

Hug Me, Mommy

Hug me, mommy, Please just hold me tight each time I cry. I know you’re tired and I’m sorry. Maybe one more lullaby?   Guide me, daddy. Show me how to know the right from wrong. No one’s taught me yet, I haven’t been here very long.   Lead me, mommy. Please, I just want [...]

Mom Guilt

Mom Guilt

Am I doing enough? This question races through my mind daily, from sun up to sun down. Am I doing enough for my preemie son? Am I doing enough for my stepdaughter? Am I doing enough for my husband? Am I doing enough for myself? After my husband and I got married, we decided that [...]

The M Word

The M Word

Miscarriage.  Say it too loudly and it burns the tongue, it singes the throat. It reverberates in the back of your ears as you wonder who might be offended, hurt, scared, or even angry if you call it by its name. If you say it out loud. She lost the baby. The baby didn’t make [...]